my mind's blank. nothing to write. if i write about what happened today, it would be boring.



i bumped into Carolyn in the Wean cluster today. She saw me editing C codes using Codewarrior and was surprised why I was using the IDE meant for introductory programming in CMU. In a matter a few minutes, she was teaching me a lot about xemacs and how I can using x-win32 and run them off a telnet window. And there was xemacs, a highly reputable code editing tool among the UNIX programming community. The GUI may not be appealing but it has a shitload of functionalities and options. Seeing how Carol tweaked her xemacs and how complex this software is, I decide that my next goal in programming is to learn to use this software. Sorry to say that the internet connection in Webster is not within the CMU network but through Comcast DSL. It's not as fast as CMU's. So, the disadvantage is that I'll be having lagging x displays.



These days life is about watching download movies and dramas, reading and writing answers for World History questions and writing C codes.



i think i want to be a spy and be stationed in Europe.

Had a very unsual dream. Went to Iraq. Was liked by the daughter (ehem) and the son of a popular religious leader there who looked and dressed like the Iranian President, Mohammad Khatami. The son was very friendly but had a flamboyant image like the Libyan dictator, Moammar Ghadafi. Then when I was about to leave the country, the feared government police came to search my house. I think I was with my brother. If I had feared the police, then that Iraq was Saddam's Iraq.

The flight home to Malaysia is a month away. I'm all happy and excited about seeing my family and friends as well as the small little town of Bintulu and the house where I grew up. However, one silly thing is bothering me that. The possible surprise among my family members and friends on how much fatter I've been since I came to the states have kept me wondering how can I lose a significant amount of weight in a month. Fore warnings were given when my family saw my photos. What can they expect, I've been under a meal plan that is enough to feed my brother and I. American drinks and cakes have sky-high levels of sugar (Corn syrup). The intensity of the workload here in CMU kept me from working out (ya ya ya). What more to say about the freaking cold winter that lasted for around 3 months. That too kept me from working out outdoors. Oh, since I live off campus, the CMU gymn seems lightyears away. It seems I have all the reasons not to be able to exercise much for the past 1 year.



It has been the other way round. My younger brother is now boasting that he has lost weight and is even considering joining a mountain bike race in Kapit. Max said he now eats once a day in Northwestern. Very much of a contrast to Max in Shah Alam. My Malaysian seniors have been telling me to join them in soccer every weekend. I just wish the need to exercise is as intense as the need to brush your teeth when I wake up in the morning. I wish that without a day of exercise, I would feel feverish.



Ah, too much whining for something trivial. At least, I am still healthy at the moment.



The Prime Minister is coming to the U.S. the week after next week and the Malaysian Student Department in D.C. are inviting students to attend the meeting with him on July 18. A night stay in D.C. and transportation costs will be on MSD. Will be going. I need to get out of Pittsburgh. I need to see America man! 4 years ain't enough.

Cities throughout America except those with dry spells had their skies lit with fireworks tonight. For Pittsburgh, the pyrotechnics at The Point was spectacular. I've never seen any fireworks show as beautiful as tonight's. There was a large crowd at downtown to celebrate America's Independence. I'll be posting the video clips of the show as soon as I get my camera back.



the crowd at the park was great except for the shooting incident that marred the event. i just got back to the place where my friends and i were sitting. i heard a few shots. i thought they were fireworks warmup so i didn't really bothered. a few minutes later, police officers were shouting for the crowd to make way. i saw this african american man being rushed out of the park on a stretcher.



later when i went home, i checked the local news. 2 youths were shot just before the fireworks started at the park.



http://www.pittsburghlive.com/x/tribune-review/trib/news/s_201955.html



Beautiful days are long gone

I can't seem to breathe

Feels like it hasn't been that long

Since you walked away from me



Now I can try to act real strong

But you and I both know

I still think of you that way

And you should know, that



The beautiful lights, the star-filled nights

They don't mean a thing

Cause you were my star

So it don't seem right

Without you here with me



Now I can try to act real strong

But you and I both know

It's hard for me to say

You were my soul



Now I could say that I don't love you no more

And I could say that I've closed the door, for our love

And I could tell you I feel it's time for us to go our separate ways

But baby I just wouldn't be the same

'Cause girl your love is still on my brain



Now when you're in love

It takes time to heal

When someone's broken your heart

And changed just how you feel



Girl I thought that you'd never do me that way

But even after all I still think of you that way



Now I could say that I don't love you no more

(I could say this, I could say this)

And I could say that I've closed the door, for our love

And I could tell you I feel it's time for us to go our separate ways

But baby I just wouldn't be the same

'Cause girl your love is still on my brain



Now love is a game

That we both like to play

Well will I win or lose if I go or if I stay, yea

Even though I try to hide my broken heart inside

Girl you know me inside-out

I can't get you off of my mind



Now I could say that I don't love you no more

(I could say that I, yea yea)

And I could say that I've closed the door, for our love

(Closed the door)

And I could tell you I feel it's time for us to go our separate ways

(No no)

But baby I just wouldn't be the same

(Wouldn't be the same)

'Cause girl your love is still on my brain

(Still on my brain)

I practically spent the whole day out today. Morning was at Strip District with Irwan. Main intention was to get Irwan's new cellphone. I had been eyeing at the the seafood restaurant that has some outdoor seats. During the previous trip to the Strip, I saw lots of people at the restaurant so I told myself I have to try out the food there. So, Bob and I went to the 2nd floor, ordered drinks and was give only a one-page menu. I was surprised with the limited choices. I asked the waitress why so and she told me that the restaurant below was a different one. So, we paid our drinks and moved downstairs. It was so funny. Sigh. Contrary to what I had expected, the food wasn't that great at least to my standards. We both had pastas and seafood but I think I can make a better pasta sauce that the one I had. A pricey lunch it was but we comforted ourselves by saying sekali sekala takpelah (once in a while).



We rushed home in time to catch the bus to Waterfront since we booked the 3.30 pm Spiderman 2 show. It was a good sequel since the outcome whether M.J. would discover Spiderman's identity. I thought she wouldn't find out. It would be a disappointment if she didn't. So, she found out who Spiderman is and became a runaway bride. Now, she's with Spiderman but I think the sequel would not be much on Pete's relationship with M.J. anymore. That kiss in Spiderman 1 is no longer a mystery to M.J. She now knows who's that great kisser.



It's 4th of July. God Bless America!

Pink-shirt girl at chess.cyert.andrew.cmu.edu



I'm sick of Php-nuke. Almost every portal that I visit these days run on php-nuke. Despite being able to change the skins for it, still the basic structure of php-nuke is there. Why can't some other group of people come up with a better designed portal system?



I'm sick of php-nuke because I had a horrible time installing it. Once installed, there were only 6 members who registered. That's why I'm sick of php-nuke.

ah. i just feel so freaking horrible. down with a fever. first with a sore throat. now with a flue. how much worse can it get? a terrible cough that will last a week? i've been in front of computers since this afternoon. i'm not a programmer neither am i chatting with my girlfriend as if i have one. so wth am i doing in front of these machines all day. i'm just an internet addict.



eunice and kenneth gave me an apron today. maybe because i used to complain that my shirt will get dirty when i cook for dinner. so kind of them. even there's an embroidered 'APIN' on it. yes, people call me the meal plan for provider for the summer. providing dinner for myself and four other friends. it has always been chicken everyday. beef and pork are out of the question. fish is too expensive in this part of America. Lamb is too costly and some may not like it.



I wish there's some other domestic animal that most ppl will eat. Something as universal as chicken but tastes different and yet still as delicious. or maybe it's just the way i cook my chicken nearly everyday. baked at 350F.